Adelaide Gleek

My Mars Bar experience

After Missy Higgins last night my mate took me to the Mars Bar
It’s the only gay bar in Adelaide

I wound up making out & dirty dancing with a woman for 2 hours
It was awesome till she started a fight & got a drink thrown on us then they chased us & pushed her to the wall then we got kicked out

Also this part is embarrassing
But does anyone know how to cover up hickeys?
It’s Winter here & my hair is growing out so I need some ideas

What if I give up?

Sometimes I wonder what would happen if I gave up fighting & killed myself
I wonder who would miss me & how bad they’d be affected or if they’d even notice or care

Truth is I’m just a screwed up kid
I’m useless

So that’s my question to anyone who see this
Would you even notice when I’m gone?

I just saw the promo for the Glee season final
Now I’m crying
I’m gonna be so sad when it ends

Glee is getting harder & harder for me to watch
Not just cause the writing is bad & wrong & unrealistic
But because of what there covering lately
Beast & the abuse

My past is coming back & I’ve seen the guy who hit me & realized how scared I am and I regret not telling anyone or pressing charges

I’m not sure I’ll be able to watch next season if it keeps going like this
I’ve been there from the start but I’m not sure I can be there to the end

spankthebatchild asked: Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn?

I don’t have popcorn that often. But when I do without a doubt Butter!

I really miss Sophie
I didn’t want her to leave but I guess it’s better on both of us that she did.
I know that she taught me a lot but she also caused a lot of damage
I know that she’ll always be in my heart & I’ll always remember her & what she taught me
She can make me feel. I kinda like feeling even if I won’t admit it
By her still being around just not in my life she will go on to help & save & change many lifes.
She’ll always be in mine cause shes a part of me she will always be my heart

Sophie made me human

It’s Anzac day
Lest we forget

My abuse

In year 10 which would be 4 years ago now. I had dated a guy at Highschool. We used to hang around with some 12 year old boys. Even though it was right in front of the School’s office & chapel he used to hit us. On the muscels. I figured it was so we couldn’t fight back. He had also been studying up on pressure points.

I also had to go get ice for my brusies. It started on my right arm. Then at some point it went to my left arm. I don’t know how bad the boys turned out. But it seems none of us said anything about it. I eventually got asked what was going on after a while. I told them so they rang up his mother. Who turned out to be a childcare worker.

Sometime later that year he greeted me a few times by smashing his fist into my left shoulder. Over the years with Basketball it’s turned into a really bad injury where if I use it too much or too long it hurts it even if I get too cold.

Ocassionaly my arm muscels will hurt but mainly on the left arm. Sometimes depending on the light you can still see the brusies.

The reason I’m writing about this now is cause the other day when my mum was pulling into our street I saw him in another car. I got really scared. I should’ve said something when he started. But I live in pain & fear of people hurting me & will for the rest of my life cause I was too scared to speak up when I was 15.

If anything like this happens to any of you or someone you know you shoild speak up & tell someone. Get it to stop. Abuse has lasting effects. So do what I wasn’t brave enough to do & tell.